I have several acid experiences.4 times in LSD and all of them are not quite pleased but I still love it more than any other drugs.

The first time was close to a nightmare.I was feeling survived after it because I took 2 for the first time.At first I only felt blessed.Tears went down on my face,the poster of ‘The Wall’ was breathing,the smudge on my safe-box kept circling,I understood the meaning of Mondrian’s abstract work.Anything made more senses and I could even touch the joy.Then things went wrong the time I began to feel more about my emotions.The joyment was replaced by paranoia and anxiety.I was in my dormitory and kept receiving my roommate’s negativity.After she went out that was when I faced the fear of death.I looked in the mirror for a long time and felt like I was Buddha or just some character of an oil painting.Then I almost saw some horrible things appearing inside the room.Time didn’t make sense at that time so I realized how irresponsible it was to take 2 by oneself as a first timer.I could almost shout out for help but no one could save me even the person I trust most.When I felt desperate and thought about suicide that was when I truly perceived the meaning of death.I understood that all of our emotions only came from two essential desires which are the longing for being and the fear of not-being.

During the period I saw the selfishness of humanity and it stroked me at once cuz it also forced me to face the selfishness of my own.How could I endure the truth but then I was refreshed.I saw the door opening up inside the ceiling due to the book ‘The doors of perception’ I read before the trip.I understood how consciousness takes part in our reality because basically it is our reality.

That was like a reborn to me.

(There is an interesting story about my first trip.Like before half a year of it,I once got high at my friend’s place,we talked about LSD and then I had a picture in my mind of my first trip,the LSD’s pattern in my picture was totally the same as the real LSD I took.In my picture I was too afraid so I threw them to the trash box while instead I took 2 for real)

And the second time I took with someone who is much more stable than me.He rejected my emotions during the time and I almost felt awkward.We went on to the top of a building and I perceived the world like an ancient netherworld no matter how modern those tall buildings looked like.And then we back to his room,he played some videos to me and the first one was how a caterpillar becomes a butterfly.I must say the second time was not enjoyable at all but somehow it forced me to change once again because I was going through a tough time indeed.

As for the third time,it was a pure LSD from Holland given by a total stranger who I met just within half a day in Hainan.This trip was definitely a strong sign from the universe cuz at the time I already learned about astrology.He only accompanied me for the first few hours and I lost the trust of the world soon.On the way home I knew it was gonna be a tough night for me.I remembered I brushed my teeth and took a shower under the condition of psychedelic and it made me truly understand the meaning of serve also shown in my own astrolabium.I was not serving myself indeed until then.Then I watched a tarot reader’s channel which always calmed me down before.But I just felt a strong distraction by those crystals beside her cards.The energy was not peaceful and I sweated a lot.I felt I couldn’t make myself calm anymore that’s when I began to draw something unconsciously.

I drew out my desires,fears and my loves.

I gained a strong faith through the third trip until now.That experience even lasted for like 16 hours and the effect was never so tremendous.I understood my path during this life which is to be as a psychic-psychologist.I received a lot information from the cosmos with no doubt.

The fourth time was like a month ago.I was back with my family and still got one pure LSD also given by that previous stranger.This time I felt I was a prisoner the time I was sitting towards a window eating.Outside world was like some beauty outta the prison.I went out for a few hundreds meters then I went back for some unknown reasons.But still I got out walking through the streets which I have walked for my entire childhood.I began to perceive the beauty of everything even they were so familiar to me.I stood in the middle of the walking square,noticing that everyone had colorful shadows behind their movements.It’s how things move with those shadows and the coherence we believed always does not really exist.On the way back I happened to pass my grandma and she asked what it was I was holding in my arms.Actually it was iPad but I answered with the word ‘this is my book’.I understood the meaning of communication without any judgements.

We went back home together and surprisingly my home was totally different.I understood every member of my family,their eager,their personalities,their thinking patterns...I cried in front of my dad although he didn’t know I was in LSD.I knew I love them but just the way has never been right.

Since I was a kid I knew I was sensitive and emotional.I was nearly bipolar but I healed myself mostly through tremendous pain.I acknowledged a lot through psychedelics including my own path.I know what I wanna gain in my next stage and also I am aware of who I really wanna be my entire life since the universe kept telling me all about it.

I believe the universe is creating together with me.

Have fun EVERYONE.