I was in mad sadness finishing watching the movie. Pains come from somewhere besides the shock that this could be the first movie that I didn't follow the plot. The idea to transfer between conciousness was not the first, as so there be in Avantar, but the underlying philosophies were much better inscribed.
There is love all the way with the plot, between Mal and Cobb. How he could have been attached so deeply with Mal astonished me in the first place. With time goes by the story revealed the true feeling inside Cobb - guilty and memory. He couldn't have possibly forgotten that he planted the idea that had incidentally killed the woman who had lived with him for more than 50 years. His love and guilty haunted him as well as the fear of memory itself.
Cobb spent 50 years in a fictious world with his love. But he chose to wake up one day. Mal couldn't. If we come to think about it, how many of us could honestly have the gut to do so. We say dreams are fictious, subjective and manipulated. But who can ensure our real life was not? After all everything is perceived and conciousness is infinate. Physical laws exist in a way that we perceive and define them. So maybe dreams are conciousness. We are what we believe. Then we are all in one dream of our own.
Dreams of the past is called memory - the thing we believe real in the past. Twisting of memories is hard. That is why we carry love, sentiments, cherish and fears with us all the way. We feel distubing when we have to confront the different or conflict perceptions. We felt sad when reality challenged the emotions in memory. Are we couragous enough to redefine our memories? Are we able to change the uttermost belief in life just to make ourselves better feeling or escape from suffering pains? Can we actually do it?
I am leaving home right now, and I feel a lot of pains that comes from the love in memory. I could have escaped the pain if I jump out of it and redefine it. But i can't. Love is there. I wouldn't let it go. So I left part of myself in the limbo.
